lets talk about fear. i am very familiar with fear... its almost like its my daily companion. i can't get away from it... there is fear of the unknown... fear of future... fear of driving in traffic... but the one i know best is fear of failure. and the really bad thing is that fear of failure is in everything. you can't run away from it. so i am trying to understand where this fear comes from... because i don't believe this is who i am suppose to be. a scared individual, afraid of trying new things, because failure is possible!.
it will be easy to blame childhood experiences, teachers at school, the world and society... but in the end i need to take responsibility for my own fear and fight it. because although the world, childhood, school gives you messages, it is up me to decide what i am going to believe, and what i am going to throw in the rubbish bin.
but that is easier set than done... you can read a lot of books... do a lot of studies... talk to as many people as you want to... but this is deeper... this is a mind set that needs to change... i believe i will be a very different person if i can break this... but its not going to be easy...
why am i sharing this here for the world to read... i don't know... i guess because i believe i am not the only person struggling here... what are you afraid of... how do you learn to believe what you KNOW is true, and not what you PERCEIVE is true?
melancolic... sometimes up... sometimes down...
About Me
- bibab
- i am an introvert, deep thinker, creative and weird. what you see is not always what you get...
2 comments:
the last question you ask is so pointed, bibab. I think it's something of a keystone. I struggle with perception vs. "known truth" quite a lot, so I can really understand the depth of the question. if you find an answer to this question, don't hesitate to put it up to help the others reading your blog to have the answer as well (like me). (c: blessings sista!
i think the first question that needs an answer is: "is there such a thing as absolute truth?" i hear you gasp in horror (those that know me) but this is valid... most of the things in life these days are all relative... how do one know when things, thoughts, ideas, proof are absolute and not relative?
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