South Africa...

I have always been proud to be a South African... I have never been ashamed to be from the African continent. But this last week, I have found my self wishing that I lived somewhere else!!! And it SUCKS! I Don't want to be like this... But when people don't do there job, loose/misplace application forms, and then just shrug there shoulders, it really makes me angry! Why aren't people proud of there job any more... What makes one person do the best they can, and another not caring.

For the first time in my life, i have taken my frustration out on a help line operator! I knew that it was not that persons fault... I knew there was probably nothing she could do... But i was so upset, i just had to yell at someone! So now i am to ashamed to phone the help line again... and i feel terrible about my actions!

I am leaving this country in a few months time... My challenge for myself will be, to keep on looking at the positive things my country has to offer... try to let go of my frustration... and pray and have faith that God still has control over everything... even though it all seems like one BIG mess at the moment.