Sunday, July 30, 2006

my thoughts at midnight

i am in the mood to write tonight... but not really sure what topic is should ponder on... how about friendship... or should i say...relationship... isn't it weird that PEOPLE are the ones that can hurt us most.. bodily injuries can be healed and treated... but when someone close to you hurts you... you sometime never get over it... yet, despite this, we still willingly share our lives with people, because we can not go through life alone! its way to lonely... i have tried to keep my thoughts and life to myself... but that lonely road was far worse then being hurt, because there was nothing... another reason i tried to live alone was because i just can't handle saying goodbye any more... yet... if it doesn't hurt... i don't live... it still freaks me out to allow people to close... but it is amazing to be able to share joy... and tears with another person... your dog just does not have the same effect!

so here is me saying... invest in people... you might get burned... but its worth it!

1 comment:

Luke said...

the give and take of friendship/relationships is better than the deafening silence of your own thoughts. I think, yes, it hurts a lot to have people as part of your life. You hurt them. They hurt you. And it REALLY hurts when they leave, because that is loss. That sense of loss proves how much better it is to have, though. All the joy that comes from being with people makes the rest worth it. Life was made to be shared. God looked at Adam, and Adam was lonely, so he made him a 'helper' to be with him. We're made not to be alone, even though it hurts a bit.

Marnelly, I think you believe you wound people more than you actually do. I know from experience that you are a very dear sister, and a beautiful person. You get moody, but so do most people. The hurts we cause get healed, and in many cases draw us closer to the people we hurt, because they know more honestly exactly who we are "warts and all" as the phrase goes. To be known is super precious, even if the knowing is a rough road.

Keep up the fight, rest in the Lord when you need to, 'cause it's a long battle. Take care sista and blessings on you and your team.