my journey

i have a question (no surprise right!?) is there anybody out there that feels he or she are understood by the rest of the world... or is it just me struggling to communicate my thoughts... maybe i am just one of those easy targets for teasing... or maybe i am really a weird person...an artist perhaps... maybe i am a genius:)… maybe I am just to sensitive for my own good… i have been asked what is the real reason for writing down my thoughts, for the whole world to read, if i don’t really communicate the drive force behind it all… why don’t i just come out and be straight forward about my faith… the “truth”… the fact is i am searching for ways to communicate my heart without sounding cheesy… scary… spiritual…

there are many different ways to tell the world what i believe… i can crash a boeing 747 in the twin towers… i can have my own tv show…i can bring it up in every single conversation i have… i can write about it all the time… but does that really help people to understand me…to understand where i am coming from? or does that scare people off… the question i have is… how can i share my heart with people, without being put in the religious box?

you can tell me i am afraid and need to be more bold…. you can tell me i should stop worrying about what people think or say about me… and that is all true… but is that the only way? hey…i might be wrong… and maybe that is something i need to learn… but i do realize that people don’t always understand where i am coming from, and that causes more harm than good… so until i learn how to communicate with the outside world … i will live out my beliefs rather then talk about it and wait for people to ask me questions.

i don’t believe there is only one way in expressing yourself (that will be too boring…no creativity). i started this journey almost 4 years ago… and i am still searching for the right way… the way that works for me… not necessarily for others!