being a light sucks!

This first half of the year has ben a hard one.... emotionally it's been very draining... it's a good thing i didn't have to go through this while working through re-entry... suddenly re-entry seems like a puppy compared to 2008!!!!

OK, Ok... so maybe i am over exaturating... but i just wish all of this crap we call life could end... the world is a sick place, and i am tired of being part of it... why did we humans, had to go and mess with the perfect design... we are super idiots! thinking we could do it better then almighty, all knowing GOD!

its not that i don't think there is good stuff happening... i know there are a lot of good things. i guess i have been bombarded with too much bad stuff this past 6 months ... i know we are called to be a light in the darkness... but i am tired of the dark... it seems like it will never end, no matter how hard you try...